I May Have Lost It

I may have lost my mind. I made a gesture tonight to Jimmy. He posted something that indicated he had a really lousy day. I commiserated. He emailed me. And we started talking almost like nothing had happened. Well, nothing really did, except I got very confused and stuff. Anyway, my heart started to beat faster when I saw his email. Oh fuck. I am in serious trouble. I don't know what the hell he is talking about half the time, but there is something about this guy that I can't shake. I want to hold him. I want to be with him, in the biblical sense. How weird is that. We have never seen each other, except in photos. Which, by the way, he always wears shades so I have never seen his eyes. I mean, how can you feel something for a guy whose eyes you have never gazed into? Don't look at me! I don't know.