Sunday, January 15, 2006

The time of my life

I'm thinking about what this new status means to me. You know, no more kids. This time of my life is a new chapter. I've never been here before. The worst thing right now are the memory lapses. I am forgetting some very important things. At home. At work. I don't like feeling so out of control of what's going on. I hope that when I begin taking my medication, this symptom will go away along with the hot flashes and night sweats. And the dry skin.

Thursday, January 12, 2006

Life is funny

So I went in for my yearly exam (you girls know what that means) last week. I have stopped taking my birth control pills since I ran out in November. I thought I would see what would happen. Well, I'll tell you what happened. I became depressed, sad, angry, amused. I was probably legally certifiable for a while there. Things have leveled off somewhat, but now I break out in sweats at various times throughout the day. So, the doc ordered the blood test to see if I was indeed menopausal and guess what? I am! About fucking time. I have been in the lovely state of "perimenopause" for about 15 years for god's sake. You get many of the benefits of menopause yet you can still become pregnant! How come no one tells you about this? I never heard of it until it happened to me. Ladies, we must talk to the younger ones about this! It is a dirty little secret. Anyway, hearing that my childbearing years are officially over is very liberating somehow. Now all I need are my new little pills.