The people you meet

in chatrooms! I met a guy who is very interesting. He's intelligent and funny. But, the thing is, I don't know if I would like him at all in real life. Think about how we first meet someone. We look at them and are either pleased or not by what we see. Then there is the sound of their voice. And their scent. And eye contact. All of these things are missing in cyberspace. People form very close relationships, despite not having physical contact or even proximity. I know someone who met a woman on the net. They were engaged and married within six months. That marriage lasted a year. We are not exactly our real selves on the net. We communicate differently. I know I do not speak at all the way I write. I have a distinct writing voice. I am not as outgoing with men in real life. Not until I really know them, at least. I guess we are enboldened by our relative anonymity. I like the people I have met, but I have no desire to see them in person. Well, maybe one.

My boss's boss called me on my cell after work. He doesn't do that. To ask a question. About something we need to buy. What the fuck? Why didn't he call my boss? I am attracted to this man. He is married. I think about being with him. Lately, we have brushed against each other, the arm, the hand. Accidentally, on purpose. What the fuck? Why not? Why not go for it? I don't share for one thing. I know I'll fall all the way in. Can't have that.