Money, again.

I always get money when I need it most. I think that is my grandmother watching over me. She was the best person I ever knew. She was always kind and she never spoke ill of anyone. She would have done anything for her grandchildren. So, when I am at a new low, somehow I always get money when I least expect it and really need it. One time, when I was between jobs and my children were small, I got a phone call from a survey company at the local mall. They wanted to know if I would come in and do a survey for them and earn $25.00. Of course I said "Yes!" and went to the mall. It was a survey about dishes. Okey dokey. Got my money. This has happened all through my life. So, I don't know why I worry so much. I've always managed to pay the bills and feed my kids. I worry as if I don't know how to survive, when I do know how to survive.

Money is the root of all evil.

Not really. Money makes the world go around. Money gives one options. That is the true value of money. Options. Without money, your life is a series of decisions based on need and limits. People who have always had money have no clue what it's like to live paycheck to paycheck. This makes them out of touch with a very large percentage of the population. There are degrees of wealth and there are degrees of poverty. When I think about how my choices are affected by my limited cash flow, I dream of having more money than anyone really needs. My whole life would be turned upside down. I want to believe that I would be responsible. I want to believe that money wouldn't change who I am. I have no idea, really. What money would do is give me options. That's what I want. I want to decide between this road and that one based on desire and not based on what I can afford.